I forgive you
First day of grade nine - we're going around the room and the teacher is asking everyone what their name is. She gets to me and I say, "I'm Chris Farias." From the back of the room a male classmate says "and I'm gay." The whole room laughs. I'm devastated. The one thing I prayed all summer for - to slip under the gaydar for 5 years while at a Catholic high school - was shattered on day one.
Tonight I saw on Facebook that that very person that outed me is in a relationship with a man. He's gay. And looks very happy.
Up until this moment I always held that against him. I hated him for it. Now I know he was deflecting - protecting himself. I understand that. Totally sucked for me. But I understand what "surviving" was like.
To that man, If you're reading this, I forgive you.